Fantasy -gives us some sort of sparks, the lalaland

and they could take that away, by giving us back to the realityh (which is fantasy’s best buddie)
Fanta and Rea.
you know, theyre like bes bud ever since.. forever lol.
they share their stuffs, their toys, but its temporary.
because what one have, the other cant have. but they can rent it.

and human = one of their toys, its actually Rea’s toy. which Rea likes to lend it to Fanta.
So Fanta plays, manipulate our minds with all sorts of wonderful things.
Her intention is always nice tho. But she doesnt know what she does to people might harm them back.
And that human sometimes can be over to the top themselves, selfish and .. dont know where or when to stop.
So.
When Rea wants human back - Fanta has no choice but to leave human with their temporary imaginations -

The imaginations that soon being crushed by Rea.
you see. Rea plays her human in a diff way. She, too, has all the right and good intentions for human.
She shows us the real world. Her fav line is

Keep it real mommmah.

So if we fall, we fall for real.
If we’re happy, we’re happy for real.
and if what we want, seems to be so impossible, she’d look for any possible real ways for us and if she cant find any, thats tooo of a Fanta’s side. If theres a way tho, she might make that happen. by feeding us all these wisdom words so that we get what we want.

well, thatts the story of Fanta & Rea. and our connection to them.
One second you probably flying on top of the world, climb the highest of mountain or gets everything you want. The next second, you might be fallling all the way down there, slides back to the ground and gets the nothingness.

The End.

Meh, btw thats just a story. a metaphor. a personafication (rofl?)

If you get what i mean. thats cool. hahaha. That means ure a weirdo like me. >.>”

well the next weird thinking time by me will be about, 2 faces - cowardy ? (whats the right word again?) - or selfishness - which is in me. Yeah, im no one perfect girl i tell ya.

get an art/design job at a well-known advertising agencies like Leo Burnett, Ogilvy, BBDO, Saatchi & Saatchi - just to name a few..

but how the heck can I get there?

I know I need some kind of contacts etc. Or when youre a student in a good design school, they can link you to those kinds of agencies. Did/going to do, some research on

1.Miami Ad School - they have like over 6 Locations I can pick from.
2.VCU brandcenter
3.Art Center College Of Design
4.The Creative Circus, Atlanta Georgia
5.University College Falmouth
6. Central Saint Martin College of Art & Design - London?
7.Bucks New University -

some other recommendations

Gloucester University & Fabrica -

so yeah mostly based in US & UK (UKisDREAM but.. im guessing it'll cost a fortune)
besides, i cant study at..Madrid or something coz I need to know Spanish?

& Aussie isnt for me. (Tho my dad suggest that or NewZealand) Theyre too… party goers? And I'm more…nothappeningkindofgirlwhohatestofitiinagroupofloudcoolrichpeople
cozigetintimidatedbypeoplelikethem and i hear alot of racismtowardsmyreligionorraceorsomething
likethat. well racism is everywhere i just need to deal with it T_T butimscared.

Maybe New Zealand isnt that bad.. ;/ but..what about my Euro Trip Dream D: ??!! Meh.. Anywhere but Malaysia. ;/ Dont get me wrong. I love my country to bits

anyways. umm

yeah money is an issue for me. I dont want to use my parents money. Thats why im planning to do a part time or something, which is another issue - like its not easy to even get a job right?

confidence is another BIG BIG. i dont think im That good of a designer, plus i cant even speak well >.> how am I gonna survive in real world ?! T___T —> which this lead to the first issue, money from parents = i dont want to go overseas, spend their money and turn out to be a total failure! that'll be a BIG dissapointment to my parents. Which really, scares the shit out of me as I Dont even know if I can get to That level. o__o

But,

What this is like a dream..
besides, well..getting a good husband and all. who can take care of me & love me for who I am & accept all my flaws & weaknesses & deal with my crappy moodswings & blablablablabla. u know the rest of the story. its Cliche.

im just really scared. of everything.