get an art/design job at a well-known advertising agencies like Leo Burnett, Ogilvy, BBDO, Saatchi & Saatchi - just to name a few..

but how the heck can I get there?

I know I need some kind of contacts etc. Or when youre a student in a good design school, they can link you to those kinds of agencies. Did/going to do, some research on

1.Miami Ad School - they have like over 6 Locations I can pick from.
2.VCU brandcenter
3.Art Center College Of Design
4.The Creative Circus, Atlanta Georgia
5.University College Falmouth
6. Central Saint Martin College of Art & Design - London?
7.Bucks New University -

some other recommendations

Gloucester University & Fabrica -

so yeah mostly based in US & UK (UKisDREAM but.. im guessing it'll cost a fortune)
besides, i cant study at..Madrid or something coz I need to know Spanish?

& Aussie isnt for me. (Tho my dad suggest that or NewZealand) Theyre too… party goers? And I'm more…nothappeningkindofgirlwhohatestofitiinagroupofloudcoolrichpeople
cozigetintimidatedbypeoplelikethem and i hear alot of racismtowardsmyreligionorraceorsomething
likethat. well racism is everywhere i just need to deal with it T_T butimscared.

Maybe New Zealand isnt that bad.. ;/ but..what about my Euro Trip Dream D: ??!! Meh.. Anywhere but Malaysia. ;/ Dont get me wrong. I love my country to bits

anyways. umm

yeah money is an issue for me. I dont want to use my parents money. Thats why im planning to do a part time or something, which is another issue - like its not easy to even get a job right?

confidence is another BIG BIG. i dont think im That good of a designer, plus i cant even speak well >.> how am I gonna survive in real world ?! T___T —> which this lead to the first issue, money from parents = i dont want to go overseas, spend their money and turn out to be a total failure! that'll be a BIG dissapointment to my parents. Which really, scares the shit out of me as I Dont even know if I can get to That level. o__o

But,

What this is like a dream..
besides, well..getting a good husband and all. who can take care of me & love me for who I am & accept all my flaws & weaknesses & deal with my crappy moodswings & blablablablabla. u know the rest of the story. its Cliche.

im just really scared. of everything.