Sometimes I think that I cant be in any comfort. When I laugh so hard, I might think something bad will happen next When I think of whatever bad things that might happen, I'll think of my family. Im always worried. Sometimes, even 10mins late can make me think many things. I know i Look like i never care for anyone else. i never really show my family that Im the biggest worrier (is there such word) in the bunch. It scared THE HELL OUT OF ME when Abah got his asthma attack that night. I think of the worst that could happen. and Ive never felt anything like that before in my entire life. Ive never been in that kind of situation before. Never. Its kinda make me feel.. Idk.. Scared. Sometimes I'd rather not knowing anyone at all. So i dont have to worry about anything and when SOME THINGS are bothering MY HEAD.. nothing can be compared with that night. I started to view life as something different. Sometimes i think Ive changed maybe not really in a positive way.